"My deepest condolences. Your husband was so kind to me during his lifetime..." This man, who spoke kindly to me when I was utterly devastated, completely broke me. I felt so sorry for my beloved husband, but having experienced that aphrodisiac, I had fallen to a point of no return. My mind was rejecting it 100%, yet my body involuntarily craved that despicable man's genitals. I am so sorry, my lord in heaven. Please forgive me for moaning in such a vulgar voice.